The Fit is Go....

G’morning Kids & Porn Stars…. TGIF. It is sticky, humid and disgusting in my office today. Last night’s rain storm was fairly awesome to watch even though it left this nasty weather behind it (and my Sirius radio fails me when it’s rainy outside!!) I worked late last night and was driving home right at the beginning of the storm. All I could think was, “I wish I was watching this with…..” (He who shall remain nameless until we see one another again.) It was weird. For the longest time, I didn’t “think” about him in any way other than my friend. We talked, and now there is this spark that has been reignited. I am afraid that it is coming out of loneliness, so I am hesitant to act on anything I am thinking or feeling. Plus I don’t want to jump back into anything just yet either. Not to mention that there hasn’t been 100% closure with other factors in my life just yet.
My friend bailed out on me (already) tonight for drinking. I am starting to think that I will never get drunk again. And we all know how grateful I am for Vodka, Twisted Tea, and wine. I haven’t drank in what feels like forever and Maggie Sue can’t help since she is now with child! :) I am starting to miss The Bunny. She was always up for drinks and/or happy hour.
I know life is filled with ups and downs and this feels like part of the down cycle for me. I no longer have “Harrison” as a friend. I haven’t spoken to “B” in a week. DP is always too busy at work to even e-mail. Cowgirl NEVER goes out. My work friends are just that, work friends. KTU is not speaking to me (Or is oddly all of a sudden not receiving any of my e-mails or text messages). As I was leaving for work today Mama Dukes said to me, “Have you heard from KTU?” I answered, “No, not really.” Then she said, “Well, I guess now you know. She’ll learn her lessons on her own. She is probably in denial about some things still.” That doesn’t make it hurt any less or make me feel any better. Or make me regret my honesty any less. I’ve decided it’s better to just keep things to myself from now on because either way you get screwed and had I held on to my secret nothing would have happened. I know damn well the third person involved wouldn’t have opened his mouth and it could have been something I took to the grave. And she wouldn't have been hurt as badly as she was.... I feel like everything is my fault.
On the upswing, I have looked into mortgages for a condo I am interested in. Can I afford it? Probably not, but if I don’t move now I may never have the chance again. Of course, the only condo’s I can afford are in a different county from where I am living and it would mean a completely different lifestyle/routine. It would mean a longer commute to work, a farther drive to Mama Dukes (might be pleasant!) and AK, a farther drive to my doctors, most of my friends, my favorite bars, the list can go on and on. However, it could mean a nice change. I have family up there. I already have some good friends up there :). I would OWN my own place. However, once I went on this website where banks “compete” for your business, my cell phone HAS NOT stopped ringing with people trying to sell me a mortgage. I don’t even have an exact place in mind, I haven’t contacted my realtor yet, and I don’t know what kind of down payment I will have (I’m waiting to hear back from my finance guy). I was just looking to see if I would even get approved. I should have given them the wrong #, LOL. So, I will keep you all posted on the final outcome of my first home purchase (if it happens).
So here it is, the weekend, I have zero plans other than working out and I am feeling a bit loserly about it. It’s so weird how one weekend you have too many plans and then you go without for a while. So, I’ve rented some good flicks through my blockbuster online account and I might just take this as another relaxing weekend.
I’ve started researching new cars since my lease will be up in about 6 or so months. It seems like I just got this car…. Although the filth that has taken over the inside and the dent on the outside tell me otherwise. (My car is my Monica closet, so back off, LOL). I am really kind of liking the new Honda Fit. It's affordable, it's roomy, and it appears to have radio controls on the sterring wheel which is my new thing that I MUST have in my next car (because I have it now...) It's kind a cute little car and I am liking the light blue color. Hmmmm.
I guess I should get to work since I have a ridiculous amount of if piling up on my desk. This is Fats McD signing off. 10-4 over and out.